AzN_PnAy_408's Xanga

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 02:29:43 GMT

Hey!!

Its been soo long since I last posted and probably most of my audience has gone off reading someone else's xanga since i am to lazy to update >.<

... Hmm... wat else should i say on this?? hmm.. nothing else LOL!!

Off to play GaiaOnline!!

Bored >.<

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 02:52:36 GMT

HALLO!!

Wow i am finally blogging in almost a year! haha... ( i don't think that its something to be proud of )

Anywayz, time for the interesting things. Its almost the end of the year and i am not sure what i want to do for my classes next year. I keep changing my mind >.<

1. AP Physics CP
2. AP British Literature CP
3. AP French Language CP
4. Ap Calculus CP
5. Advanced Foods / International Foods
6. Economics / Civics CP

Haha what a bad sched to have durning my senior year. Ahh!! well c'est la vie. Most likely i am going to end up changing foods to Visual Communications! Yay! (Sorry Tika!)

Well hopefully i have more (tomorrow??)

Cya!!

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 05:01:20 GMT

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY BERN!!

As you can tell, today is mai cuzn's bday! I am happy for her.. and if you are reading this bern, i hope you have many more to come!! xD

Anywayz... todai was as boring as a tuesday can get since i am at home with only mai bro for company. talk about being bored. mai time was spent mostly on the comp... playing SP! XD i swear... that game is addicting.

Back to sunday nite... when mai mom came home from vancouver, i got some presents from mai ninang. some bath stuff... and of course - my fav - money!! (when you get presents, and you are a filipino, expect money as gifts!! money. the universal gift ^-^) the next day, i called her and she said that next time i see her, she would give me more!! hehehe

Well that is all the time i have left to blog todai... cya laters!!!

Sunday, August 01, 2004

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 03:24:07 GMT

hEy!

Another day out here in milpitas... still bored =[ lol! jk! Mai cuzn, bro, and i were out of the house at 12 pm (lol.. we would have been out earlier, but we woke up at around 10.45 and we were watching a filipino program) For lunch, we went to McDonalds... where mai bro and i spent $10 on lunch! ^.^; talk about expensive lunch!! ... well not really, but then for 3 days, mai bro and i had about $30 to spend.

After lunch, we went down to HELLO KIDS (Sanrio store in Milpitas) where i got me a bag... for $3.75 - talk about bargain hunting - XD We stayed there for a long time, but then i only left with 1 thing.. =( We walked around the asian plaza for about another half hour before we walked back home.

Spent about another hour sitting around the house before we went swimming (again) until about 7 pm... then we went home so mai cuzn and i could cook dinner. Swimming was.. interesting todai.... (inside joke)

Well... thats basically mai day todai, and tomorrow i go home at nite when mai mom comes home from vancouver...

CYA!!!

Saturday, July 31, 2004

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 00:02:21 GMT

Hey Hey!

Well, I didn't update in a day, but at least i did in less than a week. Lol... Well i am stuck here in Milpitas at mai cuzn's house cuz my mom is going out to vancouver. Its boring rite about now since we already went swimming... just waiting for something to do. u.u I can't even go on aim because mai cuzn's comp isn't that good >.< (almost as bad as mai bro's).. sowwy bern, if you saw it... lol!!

Well.. skool starts soon and i am stressing out because i have not finished my reading list yet... need to read Scarlet Letter... one of the most boring books yet. u.u

I am off to watching tv cuz there is nothing else to do... Lol!! ^.^ mai aunt is calling so g2g! BAI BAI!!

Saturday, July 24, 2004

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 01:51:50 GMT

Wow!!

It has been a VERY long time since i came out to mai xanga site. Hmm... mabi i should keep up with it longer for the next year!! xD lol...

Not very much to write about todai cuz there wasn't that much to do. hehe.. being summer vacation and all. But it is hella cool that i was about to go to Oakland wit mai mom and bro, i guess a fam. outing since mai mom has her real estate stuff to do.=P too bad...

Skool starts in about 1 month, and i have yet to start shopping for mai new outfit for skool >< i guess to much fun. and not enuf getting rdy for junior year. *Bleh*

Thats all i can think about rite now since i have a piano lession in about.... err... ionno cuz mai piano teacher jux shows up when she does xP giving me no time to bs.... lol jk!

Well, try to update more offen, ((yea rite))

Saturday, May 08, 2004

Sat, 08 May 2004 03:32:34 GMT

*~* Memories *~*
I sit here watching the days go by.
Reminicing of our times together.
I will always treasure the memories because it is all i have left.
Everything of you was taken away from me.

I remember the day we met,
The day we said goodbye.
You were my shoulder to cry on,
You were my bestfriend,
You were my everything.

I depended on you to be there for me,
But you couldn't make it when i asked you to.

I made you feel guilty,
I made you feel hurt.
You dropped everything for me and came running,
Your love for me was always true,
But I guess I never knew how much you cared.

Years go by from when we last met,
For time does not stand still for anything
And we were of no exception.

If only you didn't listen to me,
If only i wasn't so selfish
Because then you would still be here,
Rather than six feet under.

*~* Betrayal *~*
Nothing makes sense to me anymore,
Things that I once knew no longer has a purpose.

My heart was once full of life,
But because of you, it has turned to ice.
You were once my light,
My reason to live,
But now I know that it was all a lie.

I knew what was going on,
I knew what you were doing,
My friends warned me about you,
But I chose to ignore them,
And i am a fool because of it.
I gave you a second chance,
Because I thought that you deserved it.
But once again I was wrong.

I tried to save you,
But it was a waste of breath.
I gave my heart out to you,
But you threw it away like it was trash.
I knew then that I could never trust you.
You played with me like a toy,
Whispering your sweet nothings into my ear.

As I look at you with your new "love"
I only have one thing to say to you,
To stop while you're ahead
And to stop with all your damn lies.

Thursday, May 06, 2004

Thu, 06 May 2004 03:52:10 GMT

~I WISH~

I wish i was braver
I wish i was stronger
I wish i was there to tell you how i felt, rather than leaving it all to chance.
Now i have nothing left.
You said goodbye,
And i said for you not to go, but you went anyways
Though i try to forget you,
And everything that you meant to me,
i will never be able to forget the way i sat there, while you were in pain.
I promised you that i would always be there,
But i broke my promise to you that day.
The day i didn't tell you how i felt about you, about us.
I wish I could go back in time and tell you, not leaving everything to chance.
... And i wish that you didn't have to leave me alone in my tears.

The one wish i have for you in your new life,
Is that you find someone to love you as you wanted to be loved,
And that they won't hesitate to tell you how much you mean to them
I'M SORRY

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

Wed, 05 May 2004 02:07:39 GMT

Hey There!!

*Walks into dusty xanga site* Cough Cough... wow, I haven't posted in a while now... hmm.. what to write about??

Hmm...

Well, since i can't think of anything to write about since i am REALLY bored... i guess i will write tomorrow!!

lolz... see ya'll!!!

Saturday, March 13, 2004

Sat, 13 Mar 2004 05:16:33 GMT

Hey Everyone!

Today has probably got to be the most depressing day for me. I found out today that one of my close "relative" died yesterday as a result from cancer, diabetes and other sicknesses that i don't remember. I remember when my mom called me right after skool, saying that my Aling Mercy had passed away the day before. she told me that she was grateful for only one thing, that Aling Mercy was able to pass on while she was sleeping. i was glad to know that she didn't feel any pain, but it was weird... or you could call it ironic. She sold her house that tuesday and tied all of the loose ends that she needed to. My mom said that she waited until she finshed all of her business before she died.

I guess after today, it made me realize that life is to short for any regrets and mistakes. I mean she lived a good life and i am happy to know that she doesn't have to suffer anymore... but i can't help but think about all the times i spent with her while we were in seattle...

I am going to Miss you Aling Mercy... May God watch over you and grant you safe passage into heaven.